Meaningful Life?

不开心的开心

2012-01-26T02:28:00.003+08:00

她

开心吗

？

森林与树

2012-01-02T20:42:00.000+08:00

朋友常对我说: "为什么你要为了一棵树而放弃整个森林呢? "

的确很有道理.

但偏偏还是要说一句,

"我完全赞同,但确实无法做到."

起码现在的我, 不想.

想要保留这份感觉.

最初, 最原始, 最纯真, 最简单而快乐的感觉.

它,

很奇妙, 很特别,

所以很难忘.

或许我只是说说而已.

但坦白的说, 真想一生只爱一人.

就这么一个.

两个人

手牵着手,

肩并着肩,

暖暖的感觉,

抛开一切不愉快的,

保留一切简单而幸福的东西,

简单地爱着,

直到最后...

简单

但

不容易.

2011-12-29T18:15:00.004+08:00

"作么你要酱傻,值得吗?"

"我也不知道. 或许我就是酱傻."

梦醒...

Eat.Pray.Love

2011-12-15T12:01:00.003+08:00

I still love her;

So love her.

I still miss her;

So miss her.

Share your words about it

and then

put them all aside.

《七》城堡

2011-12-11T21:28:00.001+08:00

心

仿佛被千把刀一片一片地割下，

伤了

仿佛被万孔针一支一支地刺入，

疼了

仿佛被百斤石毫不留情地压着，

麻了

如果说每个人的心

是一座城堡

那我的城堡

已完全

被掏空了

剩下的

只有那寂寞的空气

它或许

等待着下一个访客的出现

也期待着

但却

黯然发现

这城堡的大门

随着

那被掏空的一刻

已被

紧紧地上锁了

而

那串钥匙

也随之不见踪影了

关上这道门的渡客

会否回来

开启

这千斤重的

心门呢？

故事能够

重写

吗？

Wish her happy

2011-12-09T18:57:00.001+08:00

Been insomnia for long.
Awful nights.

Seek for refuge, i shall.
A place where i belong.

Trust and faith, i lack.
Belief and love, i seek.

She be happy, i wish;
for that's the reason
I'll be happy.

A smile from her, i need.
Not more, not less.
She be happy.

Delirium

2011-12-08T22:07:00.001+08:00

This is indeed the first english fiction that i've read since i was born.
Pretty embarrassing right?
Well. Nevermind that.
At least i get a kick-start.
Never too late for anything in life, right?

It's written by a young American who just debut few years back with her bestselling .
There's a lucky draw for that bestselling book, coincidentally.
I haven't got any prize for my entire life.
Yet, i gave it a shot. I mailed the lucky draw form.
So, let's see how much the book likes me.

By fate or by chance, I bought this book.
I'm kinda interested with the front page of the book.
Not because of the adolescent's face that stares at everyone who looks at her.
But for the line below the title.
The contrast between the title and that particular line is obvious.
The title is far much bigger in font size.
BUT, if u look at it, even just a glimpse,
u certainly won't miss the chance to notice the statement below it.
Or, the question i shall put it.

"What if love were a disease?"

This, is what has attracted me.
Simple, brief, yet powerful sentence.

As a loving and loved creature, can anyone not be attracted?
No i guess.

Maybe this is my first english novel, I'm kinda obsessed with it.
That's why i actually consumed it within a week.
While reading the novel, I was as if entering a different world.
A world that belongs to Lauren Oliver, the author.
That kind of feeling is just inexplicable.
It just felt so great to continue reading, consuming.

The story is plotted in an imaginary world where love is forbidden.
The cure is made compulsory for everyone when they turn into 18.
Yes, the cure for love.
Good thing about the cure, the cured ones are free from feelings of sadness, sorrow, anger and
not infected by the disease that can cause death.
The disease, Love.
Bad thing?
The cured ones become hardly humans. They hardly have feelings about anything.

Lena, the core character of the story, has been anticipating for the cure for a very long time.
She believes the cure is the only way that will make her safe.
Safe from any harm.
Safe from the disease.
Safe from love.
But, that doesn't last long.
One day, she meets her man, the saviour Alex.
And then,
she falls in love.
At the end, she would rather die than to live without love, without him.

"Love - the deadliest of all deadly things.
It kills you both
when you have it
and
when you don't. "

So true.

她

2011-12-06T11:00:00.001+08:00

她

那熟悉的面孔

那有神的瞳孔

那直挺的鼻梁

那清香的长发

那玲珑的嘴唇

那柔弱的身躯

那娇小的背影

那温暖的拥抱

那幸福的亲吻

那残酷的事实

如果时间能倒流

该有多好

如果...

疯了

《六》感动

2011-11-30T20:35:00.001+08:00

“多想想开心的东西吧，这样对你比较好”，

医生这么说道。

病房内，

出现一对年迈的夫妻。

他应该是患病了，

坐在轮椅上；

而她，

则在一旁陪着他。

男的，

手里握着一本书；

不，

应该是

一本相片簿。

只见他和她在翻阅着。

不时听见他那骇人的咳声，

身体明显虚弱，

但

他和她的脸上

仍然挂着丝丝的笑容，

看着回忆册里的照片，

一切

都显得不重要了。

对他们而言，

那是简单的幸福。

对我而言，

那是简单的感动。

《五》别丢下你一个人

2011-11-29T16:00:00.001+08:00

这一幕

忽然又出现在我的脑海里

那一天

是第一次复合的约会

那时

五月末

尴尬

用来形容我们一开始的情景

绝对是更恰当不过

还好那也只是一开始

自以为是的我

见到你的脚尖因新鞋而被磨损

不忍心

既便丢下了你一个人

跑去替你买胶布

“别丢下我一个人”

那是一封令人醒悟的讯息

在路途中的我

那时

是连跑带跳的

回来时

只见到你着急害怕的样子

同样战战兢兢的我

那时

有股想要永远保护你的冲动

想帮你敷上胶布

你

坚持自己动手

但

你脸上还是不经意地露出了笑容

你没察觉

我脸上的笑容

那时

笑得比你还要开

那一年的

那一天

那是

饱满的快乐

《四》回忆起，那段日子依然是甜的

2011-11-28T17:34:00.001+08:00

一大早看你赖床的模样

一起吃早餐的惯性动作

那是简单的幸福

凑合步行到巴士站的期待

陪你温习功课到深夜的约定

那是简单的快乐

等待听你的在电话筒的声音

虽然每次都不懂说什么

但还是期待着跟你讲电话

还是努力着做讲电话的高手

那种期待

那种努力

是为了简单的满足

一起构思未来幸福窝的模样

为下一代做打算

男的交给我锻锻炼

女的交给你扮美美

那是快乐的展望

一起努力填满属于我们的日记

快乐和不快乐的

我们都要记住

那是简单的情趣

那时的我

不用多说

就算是单单望着你

幸福的滋味已像潮水般涌上心头

能够看着你

笑,闹,哭,吵,闷

和

每个属于你的动作

那时

那是我简单的愿望

我快乐的泉源

现在回忆起

那段记忆依然是甜的

《三》给自己的承诺 – 灵验了吗？

2011-11-27T21:56:00.001+08:00

回忆当天

那天

是劳动节

但是

你家却偏偏在劳动着。

那天，

我莫名地被你推得远远的，

我们的距离，

遥不可及。

始终搞不清楚

为什么

但下了决心的我

告诉自己要坚守

承诺。

那时的我，

打从心里地对自己坦白，

哪怕有一天你像你妈一样得了癌症。

我该怎么办呢？

可能会酱吧。

老土地

说着一句像酱的话：

“不用怕，

我就在你身旁，

听见我的名字，

就像是小时候听到冰淇淋车子

发出

叮当叮当的声音一样，

想着

雪条的模样，

心里是甜甜的，什么都不怕。”

私底下，

便已经一直和上帝在协议着。

那是一个人的协议。

协议中这样阐明：

“如果将来真的要用病魔来惩罚她的话，就让我替代好了。”

承诺

一旦说出口，

要坚守

真的没想像中简单。

上帝应该是听见了。

灵验了。

也还好这样，

老土的话，也不必说出口了。

《二》不想到达的目的地

2011-11-26T21:06:00.001+08:00

回忆起那天

多希望，那是一条通往一亿光年以外的火车航班。

当时的我们，

一语不吭，

瞭望着窗外的风景。

外面下着绵绵细雨，

也不见得有美景映入眼帘；

窗口点点的雨珠，

也就成为了焦点。

火车与铁轨的摩擦声嘈杂的很，

仍然还是

听见了某某人号啕的哭声。

复杂的气氛，

吵闹的车厢，

稀薄的空气，

都

让乘客压抑的情绪,

有点失控。

而

失控着,

也就要发泄出来了.

在这时,

只见她的眼角下，

也流着点点的雨珠.

不，

那是泪珠。

我省略了安慰的词语，

独自往厕所的方向走去。

或是无情，

或是多情，

厕所里头的气氛

也

让人更失控。

只见镜子另一端，

某某人也快要失声大吼了。

但

还是压抑住了。

被压抑的是声量，

压不住的点点泪珠，

还是

流了下来。眼睛红了。

继续坚持压抑着情感，

走回座位时，

尽可能扮个若无其事。

庆幸的是，

她睡着了。

她的睡姿，

依然甜美动人，

足以让人羁绊一生。

多希望，

真的希望，

这是一条通往一亿光年以外的火车航班，
永远与目的地都还隔着一段距离。

而

我也知道

这段距离

就是我们之间的距离。

《一》噩耗

2011-11-26T18:32:00.001+08:00

多希望不是真的。

医疗报告里，

黑白字间距离分明，数字也清晰可见，字母虽然沉长复杂，

但是

三位医生的签名，

就见证了

事实的存在。

脑海中一片空白，

只是更坚定地

知道那以前作出的决定

是

正确的。

现在毕竟知道，

让别人疼惜她，她会更幸福。

深夜辗转难眠，已成习惯。

本以为

医生手里的报告书

只会增添内心的不安与恐惧，

让

己人忧天的我

更沉沦于杂乱的思绪中。

但今夜，

转眼间，入眠了。

可能，

潜意识已经被死神给说服了，

毕竟现在，

珍惜剩下的时光，

是目前仅有的唯一使命。

Hometown Sunset

2011-11-23T21:32:00.001+08:00

We always look at the good things others have

while

thinking that we have nothing.
Actually

We do not lack good things around.

We simply lack an appreciative heart.

< Picture captured at hometown - Simpang Pulai >

法证先锋３－第二十集

2011-11-23T21:09:00.001+08:00

世界上
应该
没有所谓的
爱对　或　爱错

一段爱情
发展到如何
都是看个人的
造化
罢了。

潘嘉丽的歌

2011-11-22T22:39:00.001+08:00

潘嘉丽 - 说不哭

潘嘉丽 - 陪我到最后

潘嘉丽的声音

陪伴了

我

一整天

在车里

第一次听见那首曲

《说不哭》

已经

觉得它很好听了

回家
再回味时

回忆更变成了
调味品

把

我的心情

带进

歌曲里

成全

2011-11-22T17:43:00.001+08:00

地球

一直在转动；

事物在变，

人也在变。

物质和肉体上的占据，

是短暂的；

而

心灵上的占据，

也

不见得

是永恒的。

得不到

是

注定

得到的

是

幸运

失去了

是

领悟

茫茫人海中，

能相遇

是

缘份

能相爱

是

福份

寻寻觅觅中，

能找到爱你的

那是

一件快乐的事

能找到你爱的

那是

一件幸运的事

能找到知心的

那是

一件比幸运更幸运的事

找到知心又相爱的，

那是

一件什么事呢？

或者

问题应该是

能找到吗？

对于失去的
虽然

不能够
绝对潇洒

但

最起码

在这追寻的过程中
要懂得成全

以为

2011-11-19T14:14:00.001+08:00

原来

并没那么简单,

丢弃的东西

虽然不再出现在眼前,

但

回忆

始终像烙印般,

深深地刻在脑海中.

我

以为我能做到,

但

原来,

不简单.

我

错了.

幼稚的做法,

让我成熟了吗?

顿时领悟了.

如果,

时间可以倒流,

我

宁愿

保留我的幼稚,

也不愿

把它们扔掉.

毕竟

它们都是

我们曾经爱过的证据.

那些年, 我们一起追过的女孩

2011-11-18T20:43:00.001+08:00

恋爱最美好的, 就是暧昧的感觉.
是酱吗?

当回忆成为仅仅剩下的东西时，
遗憾
往往战胜一切，
而让故事变得凄美动人。

当希望不可能被实现时，
盼望
往往只能被深藏心底深处，
好让故事永成回忆。

从单纯的喜欢，到纯情的暧昧，到错过的美好。
终究不能演变成
浓浓的爱情。

真相，真的那么难被接受吗？
不是，
只是一旦[当下]变得太过美好的时候，
我们都不愿去改变，
害怕一旦改变，
原本的美好也随之飘走了，
但却不懂，
要迎来更美好的将来，改变是必然的。

或许
也是因为这样，
故事才变得如此感人，
遗憾中
还能品尝出
一点点暧昧的滋味。

没有在一起

2011-11-18T20:22:00.001+08:00

宁愿一丝不剩，把所有都扔掉；
也不愿保留对方对自己仅存的尊严，
让一切归零。

但，
一切真的可以从来吗？

心，碎了；
梦，灭了；
情，断了；

当悲伤已经占据我的心灵，
所做的一切
似乎都不重要了。

甜美的回忆，
统统都变成了痛楚的根源。

我在想
哪怕
如果有一天
我对你说，

其实
当我对你说我爱你的时候，
我已为它设下了一个保用期，
而，
那保用期在
今生今世都会有效，

那，
任性的你
还愿意回到
我身旁吗？　

kisses

2011-11-16T13:44:00.001+08:00

dreams.

kisses.

reality.

dream.

one-way ticket

2011-11-14T20:54:00.001+08:00

I used to dream about her every night since our last departure.
Nights have become my greatest fear.
I couldn't sleep at all.
I just couldn't help it.

But after what I did, I'm relieved.
It's a one-way ticket.
I knew it.
But I insisted in doing that because I couldn't think of a better idea.
I need to get myself out and move on.
Even though the price to pay is to be hated,
Even though the price to pay is to lose a friend,
Even though the price to pay is to tear the heart apart,
I did it.

For once, it was a selfish call.
I'm sorry.

Now,
better dreams come.
I hope.

when it's gone

2011-11-14T20:41:00.001+08:00

The worst decision to make is to make no decision at all.
There's this time when u know u have to do something even though u're in doubt.

I did mine.
It was stupid. But i knew it had to be done.
In fact, i felt much better for making that decision.
Though, i'm not so sure whether it's the right call.

But, when u're stuck in a bad situation,
u have to make a move.
good or bad.
do it and see what happens.

Things can never be any worse, can they?

What's done is done and what's gone has already gone.
There's no point looking back especially when u know giving up is the only option.
Right?

Create Existence

2011-06-28T04:23:00.005+08:00

I have to admit that there will be an artist-of-the-year nominated by my inner me.
It's being done subconsciously.
Couldn't help it.
Gary Chaw and JJ Lin had both been mine for the past two years respectively.
This year?
Adele.
Fantastic vocal performance.
Strong and deep voices.
Can't get her songs off my mind. Seriously.
At least for now.
She's just amazing.
Her songs are just soul-touching.
Don't believe me? Hear it for yourself.

Rolling In The Deep [2011]

Someone Like You [2011]

These are just two provisional feeds. Don't bother to get somemore songs for yourself. U definitely are gonna like it.
Not just like it. U're gonna repeat for thousands times like i did.
The songs are addictive.

U might start wondering what the hell do adele's songs have to do with my title.
Well. Nothing, literally.
But, somehow, by listening to her songs.
I found the importance of creating self-existence.
Now, Adele has successfully created her appearance in me.
Apparently, it's not just me. It's hundreds of millions of people on this earth.
She exists for her voice.
She exists for her performance.
She exists for her belief.

We always hear people telling us that the reason for living is for yourself.
U live for yourself rather than for others.
But, is it true?
Or maybe the question should be: can it be?
I cannot.
Certainly, i can't. At least not for current moment.
I feel like i don't really exist.
I seriously think that i ought to live for someone. or perhaps something.
I feel pathetic for right now im living for myself.
I'm alone.
Of cos, i have family, girl friend, best friends and lots of good friends.
BUT, i can feel the emptiness in myself.
It's really empty.
I wish i can express it.
By any means.
Like Adele. She expresses her feelings so well in her music.
Arh. We are always told that music (singing) is a way to express oneself.
How true?
It's not easy. And if u observe carefully, it really does.
But, how many people are able to express themselves just like Adele does?
Very little.
I mean most of us can't even face ourselves truthfully.
U might not agree with me.
but, Well, let's face it.

Self-existence is now associated to being honest to oneself.
Oh mine. It's getting damn complicated.
I've got it complicated.
Great.

T.O.O R.U.S.H

2011-04-12T15:08:00.002+08:00

Well. It's now April.
Mid of April, to be more precise.
The good thing is, I stop procrastinating.
It's great, isn't it?
Yeah, i found a part time job.
It's an office job, not the kind of event job that i thought i would have found.

Making decision has never been easy since i was born.
It has not been made much easier since i finished my advanced diploma, either.
Despite the fact that i have half a year to go before i'm officially graduated,
i truly think that it's time to start narrowing down the options for my future career.
Good question with endless answers which leads to no answer.
Whilst the search of the answer, i came across this job.
A kind of job that deals with telemarketing stuff.
Not that kind that involves lead-generation.
Just normal calling job.
That's not the main point here. The main point here is that i get to be exposed to this telecommunication company.
And it happens to be a very very big enterprise.
Cool, isn't it?
Is this fate?
want me to get involved in telecommunication field which i once thought to be an interesting field for me to get in?
Maybe yes, maybe no.

I believed in fate.
Now, i continue to believe more so.

Anyhow, i'm learning alot. Much.
The things around, the office culture, the people, the environment, the food, the technology....

So much that i've realized.
I still like to complicate stuff and rush things.
Still a hot Thing.
Still young, i guess.

2011-03-20T02:02:00.002+08:00

It's 2011 march now. Soon it's gonna be April and May will be just right after.

Time is passing by. I'm procrastinating. The drama of life is happening. Without pauses. My grandpa left us. The leaving is forever. My family is recovering, getting used to what it turned out to be. Everything was so sudden. Without noticeable sign, things just happened.

Life was wonderful and is less wonderful now.
Don't quite sure what it's gonna like in the future.

The world sucked. It still is. I'm sure it will always be that way. Greed is the biggest hindrance to the peace of the world. Greed is good. But it's always good for one, never more than that.

I was seeking for the peace of mind. I'm still seeking for it. But the world sucks. my body is greatly affected. My soul is directly influenced. The fact is that peace of the world could hardly be achieved. Chances are there. But very tiny. Almost negligible. Yet, chances are there. Peace of mind could easily be achieved. Well, not as easily as told after all. It practically involves the exercise of being ignorant. There was once a saying says "ignorance is bliss". It's undeniably true.
But, how?

Twentyone-year-old

2010-10-30T18:41:00.006+08:00

Most of my frens
have turned or are turning
into
being a 21-year-old.

And ofcz, I already am.

It's not as easy as anyone else below 21 might be thinking.
It's not that fun after all.

To me,
it means it's time to bear all the shit by my own.
Both good shit and bad shit.

DECISION of life.
where difficulty lies,
where doubts grow,
where future seems unclear,
where you choose your LIFE.

I'm experimenting.
I'm experiencing.
I'm examining.
I'm working out Jeck's life.

Wonderful Date

2010-09-22T13:45:00.009+08:00

18-Sep-2010 Saturday

An outing after yan's exam...
Truly wonderful after.. herm.. lets see.. 3 months? yeah..
almost that long since my last outing with her..

Spent a few vouchers..
It's also the day i realize the usefulness of vouchers.. =) COoL

1st voucher: GSC movie vouchers
I redeemed the vouchers for
CATS & DOGS: THE REVENGE OF KITTY GALORE

Comments: I think it would be quite a great movie if there's a little more climactic excitement.. Yet, i kinda like the characters in it.. not bad.. =) Rating: 6.5/10

2nd Voucher: Starbucks Buy 1 for 1 free
It's considerably the first time i tried starbucks, if not mistaken... =)

Mocha latte is so bitterly nice... Suit my taste..
Honey's caramel latte is so sweetly nice.. very smooth.. very nice!

After that, it's all about
SHOPPING! everyone likes to shop (majority), so it's nothing special to talk about here.. GO GO shopping..! =)

Fury in my nerve...

2010-09-06T11:26:00.002+08:00

My mood was totally spoilt the night before...
Anger kicked in...
Deep and uncontrollable...
Can't believe my cousin's mum is such an wickedly thick-face accountant-type housewife...!

The fact is i still have to bear with it for another half a year...
How m i supposed to do that...
Well, i have to to even though im reluctant...
I guess it will make me a better person at the end of this...

Forgive and forget... That's the only thing i should do...
Arrh..
one more i guess.. One unimportant person to bother with from now on...
=)

Endurance counts...

Relating "T" "S" "Y" to myself... I

2010-07-24T18:25:00.004+08:00

** 'T' , 'S' and 'Y' questions are basically scattered... They are not in alphabetical sequence... :>

3

2

1

Start....

Q: Do u think u are a yahoo?
A: In the first place, isn't yahoo a search engine? hehe... yes, but at the same time, it also means someone who is rough, noisy or bad-mannered... SO, definitely I'M not YAHOO... :D

Q: A stingy Thing?
A: I don't think so.. :)

Q: A staunch Thing?
A: Trying to be... Loyal to my very own thinking...

Q: A stoical one?
A: I used to be.. Now it seems i have gone astray.. Thing, come back! complain less..

Q: Tenacious in task accomplishment?
A: Perhaps in things that i'd like to do... BUT, what are they?

Q: Tempusfugit?
A: It's used to describe time..! not myself.. >.< :P

Q: Young, youthful?
A: YES YES... My birth year increases by 1 yearly since 2007.. :D

Q: Thing is a yesman?
A: Definitely not!! u may rather call me an egomaniac, but not a yesman... Never..

Q: Tactful enough?
A: I think most of the time, yes... to me, being tactless = being annoying

Q: Are u being taciturn most of the time?
A: **Deep thought... Herm... SOMETIMES>>..

Q: What traits u find urself most lack in??
A: Haiz... now, dis will definitely sound sad...
Talented, i'm a truly-ordinary;
Sharpwitted, i'm a slow, deep thinker,

Q: Yummy?
A: LOL.. It's used to depict food pleaze... I don wanna ppl to lick on me... :)

THESE ARE provisional feed... Enjoy... :)
** to be continued some other day...

有时候

2010-06-28T23:11:00.003+08:00

星期一雨天

纳闷。。。
漫歌朗朗上口，抒情，舒服，到味。。。

时间又嘀嗒嘀嗒地流逝了！

无奈。。。
已经无法自我定位了。。。

无奈。。。

鄭中基 - 晴天陰天雨天

除此之外

2010-06-19T21:21:00.001+08:00

突然而来, 莫名的感动...

my NAME my PASSION

2010-06-17T20:41:00.005+08:00

What my name means?
Definitely, i know it... I'm a special thing... ;D
But here's the results i get from a test suggested by my fren's blog...
__________________________________________________________

You entered: Jeck Thing Seng Yik

There are 16 letters in your name.
Those 16 letters total to 78
There are 4 vowels and 12 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 6

The characteristics of #6 are: Responsibility, protection, nurturing, community, balance, sympathy.

The expression or destiny for #6:
The number 6 Expression provides you a truly outstanding sense of responsibility, love, and balance. The 6 is helpful and ever conscientious, making you quite capable of rectifying and balancing any sort of inharmonious situation. You are a person very much inclined to give help and comfort to those in need. You have a natural penchant for working with the old, the young, the sick, or the underprivileged. Although you may have considerable creative and artistic talents, the chances are that you will devote yourself to an occupation that shows concern for the betterment of the community.

The positive side of the number 6 suggests that you are very loving, friendly, and appreciative of others. You have a depth of understanding that produces much sympathetic, kindness, and generosity. The qualities of the 6 make the finest and most concerned parent and one often deeply involved in domestic activities. Openness and honesty is apparent in your approach to all relationships.

If there is an excess of the number 6 in your makeup, you may exhibit some of the negative traits associated with this number. There may be a tendency for you to be too exacting and demanding of yourself. In this regard, you may at times sacrifice yourself (or your loved ones) for the welfare of others. In some cases, the over zealous 6 has difficulty distinguishing helping from interfering. You may have difficulty expressing your own individuality, because of involvement with responsibilities and causes. Like all with the Expression of the number 6, it's quite likely that you worry much too much.

Your Soul Urge number is: 1

A Soul Urge number of 1 means:
Your Soul Urge is the number 1. With a Soul Urge number of 1, you want to lead and direct, to work independent of supervision, by yourself or with subordinates. You take pride in your abilities and want to be recognized for them. You may seek opportunities to display your strength and usefulness, wanting to create and originate. In your desire to manage the big picture and the main issues, you may often leave the details to others.

The positive 1 Soul Urge is Ambitious and determined, a leader seeking opportunities. There is a great deal of honesty and loyalty in this character. If you possess positive 1 Soul Urge qualities, you are very attainment oriented and driven to success. You are a loyal friend and strictly fair in your business dealings.

The negative side of the 1 Soul Urge must be avoided. A negative 1 is apt to dominate situations and people; the home, the spouse, the family and the business. Emotions aren't strong in this nature. If you possess an excess of 1 energy, you may, at times, be boastful and egotistic. You must avoid being too critical and impatient of trifles. The great need of the 1 Soul Urge is the development of friendliness, and a sincere interest in people.

Your Inner Dream number is: 5

An Inner Dream number of 5 means:
You dream of being totally free and unrestrained by responsibility. You see yourself conversing and mingling with the natives in many na tions, living for adventure and life experiences. You imagine what you might accomplished.

____________________________________________________

It's sometimes interesting that even your name implies some important messages about yourself... Give it a try... =)

http://www.paulsadowski.com/NameData.asp

2010-06-13T17:21:00.002+08:00

Keep failure in record,

AND

foresee yourself

SUCCEED!!!

My sassy girl 2008 =)

2010-06-03T19:20:00.006+08:00

A must-watch movie for those who love LOVE STORY... =)

The story begins with the fated meeting between a hellion girl, Jordan Roark who has lost her dear fiance in an accident and a kind-hearted gentleman, Charlie Bellow who has never been in love before.

Destiny has brought them together. They have had the happiest life ever living with each other before they leave apart. There are some reasons in why they could not continue to stay with each other. And i think this is the interesting part in the movie and u ought to find it out itself. =)

Before they leave each other, they have written down notes of how their feelings are to each other and the notes are buried under a tree. They promise to each other to come back and check the notes after one year, if they haven't forgotten each other by that time.

Day after day, Charlie is still keeping the promise faithfully. No one and nothing could change his mind to wait for his destined wife.

After one year, the day has finally come.

** Check out the movie for the ending... It's nothing too special but for sure, it will remind you of something, of what destiny really is. =)

Here are some quotes that i found to be meaningful in the movie:

1.
Charlie :

It was
beyond everything in my experience
and
beyond my ability to fix;

I have no right to judge her...
If i chose to stay with her,
knowing the risks,
i'd like to do is give her love and respect,
and
see
how the story would end ... ...

2.
Charlie:

The truth about destiny.
All i know about destiny is
when it wants to accomplish something,
you can't do it alone,
you still have to go to that restaurant (to your understanding, u still have to do something),
you still have to show up,
you still have to build the bridge to your the one you love.

>> It's true... We can't be sitting there just to wait for our fated one to come along... You have gotta take the action... You have gotta do something... and when what u do is right, HE/SHE will surely arrive at the front of u.

3.

**Jordan hugs Charlie in the railway station.**

Jordan : Wait! Who said u can hug me?
Charlie : **confused...** err... I beg..?
Jordan : Okie... **Hug** I actually love the way u handle me...

>> =) this scene is so sweet... (=

4.

Old man to Charlie : The shaping and molding of his destiny, is in fact your destiny.

>> This is so true... When u are fated to be together, u two will be linked together as one, no matter what... =)

感激被感激

2010-06-02T19:01:00.002+08:00

除了

珍惜，

在这个世界上，

对我而言，最难能可贵的就是

感激了。

很多时候，

我们

往往把别人对我们的好，

当作理所当然。

到最后，失去了那份“好心好意”，

却只能

独自感叹。。。

懂得

感激；

及时表达

感激；

因为

感激

能让人

感激被感激。。。

曹格：再一次

理智与不理智之间

2010-06-01T16:42:00.002+08:00

理智与不理智

之间，

总是

存放着

感性这一种东西。。。

而

感性，

往往都是被欲望所操控着，

能够驾驶欲望的人，

我相信都是

非凡人。。。

而

凡人，

我相信都是

被欲望驾驶的人。。。

格格不入的歌曲，

凡人的至爱：

曹格：入戏

最后你转身离去

闪过一丝犹豫

一镜到底像拍好的剧情

埋下伏笔未完待续

是我 一直太入戏

彻底 为你着迷

安安静静

有一千种表情
看不清也不想看清

铺天盖地是你完美演技

一句抱歉说得煽情

坏人我做就可以

若及若离是你完美演技、

哪里热闹往哪里去

都随你

一生全命爱着你

陪你演出对手戏

我毫不犹豫

不管未来在哪里

你的绝情和净利

曹格 : 天使嫉妒的生活

真的什么都别说

彩虹正在消失 我们赶快捕捉

以后的以后再说

你安静的眼神 也有一种节奏

Love is a beautiful thing

多美丽多难得

Love is a wonderful thing

就是那么爱你 什么都想为你

爱是一种毒瘾 正在发作

你知道我爱你 会爱到很久

甜蜜不必急着说

慢慢享受

连天使都忌妒的生活

只要看你一秒

那些亿万个心愿 都简化成一句我爱你

就是那么爱你

爱是一种毒瘾

正在发作

你知道我爱你

会爱到很久

甜蜜不必急着说

慢慢享受

(幸福的生活)

曹格：掌纹

在我的手心你落下的眼淚很冰
晶瑩的淚滴輕輕滑過我的一生
春去春又回我走過的孤獨很黑
難忘那一刻你走進生命的瞬間

我不信命我信愛情是沒有理由
悲歡的注定在我的掌紋中你在那裡
如此的清晰沒有輸贏你是我的命

我不信命
我信命中你給的每個考驗和奇蹟
在我的掌紋中安身立命是否願意
張開手你回應
我不信命我不信命我只信你

当快乐冲昏了头

2010-05-30T19:34:00.003+08:00

当你在享受快乐的时候，

别忘了停下脚步，

问问自己

到底了解自己在做着什么吗。。。

别让快乐冲昏了头！

当你越想要，但却迟迟得不到，

时机来到了，

你要把握，

但更要节制，

也更要提醒，

别白白断送机会，也别麻木地去做。。。

别让欲望冲昏了头。。。

两首至爱。欣赏！

短暂的快乐

2010-05-29T13:09:00.004+08:00

快乐其实很简单。。。

只要心里的忧虑越少，人就越快乐。。。

昨天的我，

忧虑少了，感情深了，

快乐了。。。

(-: jeck :-)

Post posting

2010-05-26T21:01:00.003+08:00

Promises are not for spoken or sung...
BUT for keeping by actions...

或祸或福

2010-05-26T20:47:00.004+08:00

既然选择了，就要忍耐，宽恕。。。

时间

成为了

重要的关键。。。

而我，

身心

早已超过

我所能想象中的负荷。。。

疲惫；

但幸福。。。

疯了！

感动的歌

2010-05-24T19:25:00.002+08:00

感动我的歌，
是那么的
扣人心弦，嚷嚷入口！

我的歌曲，
我的心情。。。

平静与不平静之间，
带点幸福的感觉。。。

满足。。。

Post posting - 520

2010-05-22T14:24:00.008+08:00

5 2 0 - 我爱你

It's interesting that numbers can also represent meaningful words.
However, such interesting figures are that easy to pop out from one's mouth when he/she is with their loved one.

Whether u believe anot, these 3 words are simply amazing...

Saying it at the right time,
it strengthens relationship between the two;

Saying it at the wrong time,
it vanishes everything;
feeling, trust and faith;

Not saying it at all,
it might create walls between the two when time grows.

Don't hesitate to say it to your loved one before it's too late...
Most importantly, prove it with actions... :-)

I love u

Truth is

2010-05-20T12:18:00.006+08:00

Heart-to-heart conversation

leads to

better understanding.

Feelings

are

unseen, untouchable, unpredictable.

Have faith

in what

u are doing.

Sooner of later,

a story of u and her

will be recalled;

Simple,

maybe

with little romance,

with little confusion,

with little expectation,

but

with memorable moments,

with strong belief on each other.

long lasting.

天时，地利，人和

2010-05-18T20:47:00.001+08:00

对的时间对的环境对的人物

造就的是

缘份

缘份

少一不可

对的频率对的心情对的感觉

Unveiling the truth

2010-05-18T18:32:00.003+08:00

It was
beyond everything in my experience
and
beyond my ability to fix;

I have no right to judge her...
If i chose to stay with her,
knowing the risks,
i'd like to do is give her love and respect,
and
see
how the story would end ... ...

my heart is chaotic...
doing things that got no return...
i deserve it...

it's all fated!

IMperfecting perfection

2010-05-17T15:32:00.002+08:00

What perfectionists do in their whole life is to achieve ultimate perfection...

What i'm doing right now is totally opposite...
Trying to "persuade" myself of the fact that perfecting your life is almost impossible...
Right to a certain extent, i'm defeated...

Not as confident as i was...
Not as detailed as i was...
Not as logical as i was...
Not as optimistic as i was...

Life itself is simple...
What complicates life is your own feeling...

Perfection is what i have been chasing for all this while...
When my feeling gets complicated, my life starts to become chaotic...

To make life looks easier, one of the ways is to NOT go for perfection...
For a perfectionist, it might work...
Most of the time, it deteriorates the situation...
WHY?
Because sooner or later, the seem-so-easy life would turn out to be so troublesome...
Things that u din perfect will “ask"for perfection eventually...

At the end,
u lose yourself,
u lose your feeling,
u lose your life!

Frankly, i'm losing mine...

记忆消逝中

2010-05-17T15:09:00.003+08:00

时间让我麻木了。。。

不太喜欢记得东西了。。。
越是很努力，越是容易忘记。。。

种种的记忆和回忆都在慢慢的，渐渐的，消逝着。。。
害怕是必然的，
害怕的是以往美好回忆的磨灭，
更害怕的是自我完美性格的迷失，

印象中高傲自信的我，就好像成了影子，
只留着黑色躯体，模糊起来了。。。

Not being myself anymore

2010-05-16T23:11:00.005+08:00

Days are passing by...

My last update on my blog was 15 months ago... sigh**

Things are going on well, i thought...
But then, i started to find out that when things around u changed, u changed...
The long-lost feeling of unsecured and lack of confidence again stroke me hard...

Diverged roads are ahead...
I'm losing my mind,
losing my ability to judge the others,
and also myself...

I'm starting to afraid of making decision, especially in front of that somebody...

I could not read my mind, leave alone hers...
Trying to understand, though it has all gone beyond logical judgement and sensible rationalising...

It has already gone very deep, deeper than what i thought it would be...
At the moment, i'm not whom i seem to be anymore...

Port Dickson trip... 28-29/03/2009

2009-03-31T16:39:00.006+08:00

It has been ages since i last went for a true trip with friens...
haha... not that long also la... 2 years i guess...
Just like i have mentioned earlier, im still as forgetful as before... no idea where my memory has gone to!? hehe...
Got pros and cons also la... at least i would not have to remember those unhappy thing... not worth it to be stored in my memory also...
However, i hope i would not forget the PD trip that i joined in dis year...

The PD trip i have been to this time was my first travel to beach and seaside... Since small, i have always hoped to im a good swimmer and my family would have brought me to the seaside to play... However, my hope never come true due to various reasons la...

Honestly, this trip really brought quite alot of fun and unforgettable experience to me... Though i don know how to swim and somehow i have trauma towards water, i had successfully overcome the obstacle and eventually stepped onto the beaches and touched the seawater... ^.^ Honestly, i felt incredibly cool... Unluckily, i din manage to try the banana boat, i swear to myself, the nx time when i approach to seaside again, i might not miss any chances to try it...

The BBQ we had at night was undoubtedly a special one to me as well... There, i had my first time litting up the BBQ fire by my own... Felt so proud.. ^.^ We had a great time chit-chatting and sharing there... The lesson i learned is that BBQ is not about filling the stomach, but filling up soul... o.O

The night was a peaceful night as all of us were tired playing for the whole evening... We did not stay conscious and chat like we have planned... That night i saw all of the "members" gone into sleeping mode... I totally agree that when someone is sleeping, its utmost natural look shows... Those are the sweet and cute faces that only true friends could ever have the opportunities to take a glance at them...

SMA has truly marked another opening in my life... This may be the last time that we spent our time together traveling... I believe with the rapport that we have built, our friendship will last forever and ever...

fROm: ~jECk~

In a different stage in life

2008-12-20T18:34:00.003+08:00

There are different life transitions that are inevitable for human...
Whether u accept them willingly or reluctantly, they still keep on coming...
The only thing u can do, most probably would be to acknowledge urself about the changes that are going to happen and make sure u are standing on the right path which will lead u to the right destination...

U might be in control with most of the things in ur life... However, the truth is that not all the things are mutually tolerable and controllable... U can't do anything u want just because u like it...

Nothing is perfect, this is the nature law; the law that everything and everyone just amazingly and undoubtedly conform to... Something that seem to be miraculously perfect must not be what they seem to be... So, don't seek for perfection in urself... Rather seek for flaw in urself... DEAL with it, CONQUER it, BEFRIEND with it, and finally BE it part of ur life...

Thing's saying: Flaw makes someone looks perfectly wonderful...

低调是一种完美的呈现...

2008-11-06T19:37:00.003+08:00

最近，话似乎说太多了... 多得有点不自在，感觉很不寻常...
话少不如话多，其实我一直都深信着...
但往往都无法掌控，真令人懊恼，更有点讨厌自己的感觉！
脱口而出的话说得越多，曝露的缺点也就越多越多...
三思吧...
相信自己，要做自己想要做的那个自己，不是别人...
要知道，低调和谦卑是一种完美的呈现！

06112008... 蜕变前的丁少笔

It is already end of October...

2008-10-24T21:15:00.003+08:00

woo... already 3rd week of the 4th semester, without realizing...
4th week is coming ahead... haiz...
time, u are so mean to me... all these while, i seem to be doing nothing...
my soul is empty... my heart is unfilled...

lonely, lonely, lonely...
what can i do to get rid of such feeling? /-\

People do learn and grow with time...
Is dat true?? Who can justify that??
How could we know whether how much we have grown??
How could we realize when we are mature enough to make a firm decision?? =.=

maturity versus reality...................
enjoyment versus suffering.................
good versus bad................
right versus wrong..................
cruelty versus humanity...............
angel versus devil...............

what's ur option among those ??? +.X

gunbadeh in life la.... -_-_-_-_-_-_-_[o]

Heavy head... heavy shoulder... life seems to be so heavy to me...

2008-08-25T18:46:00.002+08:00

Again... i had no chance to have a nice sleep yesterday...
Early in the morning, i gotto woke up to go for that "Scinahcem" lecture... haiz..
Honestly, i regret i did not write something in the evaluation form.. Else, it would be an interesting essay... Do u expect a lecturer to say something like "There is no fair exam in this world already... DO NOT EXPECT the examiner to think for u... "...
Self-fish... self-fish... self-fish...
Rather saying something that is useless, why would not he say something else that will be useful to us..?? Something like answering technique... or the way he marks the paper...
far more and more constructive to us... o-o
It seems im too critical in this case... however, i would say we got no right to blame him though the way he lectures and tutors really really really not welcoming and sometimes i would say "mou tak king"! You never expect answer from him... That's the lesson i learn from this lecturer....
Don talk about him already... no point complaining here also...
Back to my daily life...
Today, incredibly for this semester, i was able to come home as early as 130 pm...
After watching some dramas and eating rojak, i slept for 3 hours...
It sounds long... but to me, i think that i have slept for few minutes only as im still feeling very very heavy and tired...
I even had a dream... I would not say bad... But something not good also...
In my dream, my friends were very old...
Haiz... what message does the dream want to bring to me???
Time is passing? We are all aging?
Or something else?
Hopefully, it will be something better than worst...
---oo--- jECk without mood... ~y~

Same thing happens and happens again...

2008-08-24T18:51:00.002+08:00

Time passes real fast as i oways mention...
Again, it is another end of the skul semester... wat a syok (shock)...
Yuckzz... it means exam is jz around the corner at the same time lo...
Haiz...
Keep on having insomnia these few days... that's why everyday i feel very tired and heavy...
If you ask me whether im afraid of the exams, sori... i can't give you an exact answer...
Honestly, i have no idea what kind of ideology that im holding currently...
Cham cham cham....
4 flat... Do i wish i could maintain that??? Nobody knows... even myself...
oo---oo

Few days more to birthday oredy... till then im still a 18-year-old buddy... but few days later... what would i be??? Again nobody knows... Only god knows me well...
my wish???
wish my wish that im going to make will come true....
All the best to those who view my blog.... ^-^

什么是事实？什么是借口？事实上，有"事实"这回事的吗？

2008-08-01T22:43:00.002+08:00

常常让人困于泥陷当中的"事实"就不过是前人和众人所赞同的东西罢了!
又有谁能百分百肯定那一样事情就是事实呢？
世界上的这一切这一切，都不应该有个定义... 因为每个人都有自己的观点，为何一定要跟谁别人的脚步呢?
有些时候，
我们会被所谓的"事实"所蒙蔽，因而常常都会找借口来欺骗自己...
到头来，还不是因为自己才无法把某件事做好吗？
真的是事实胜于雄辩吗？
我不晓得... 但我相信坚持信念，不到最后一秒都不放弃，往往会让我等到奇迹的出现的那一刻...

不要再为自己找借口了... 幸福和快乐就掌握在你自己手中...
错过了... 可能就会终于等待了...
为自己的为来而加油吧!!!

Gloomy day....

2008-07-26T19:24:00.002+08:00

everything seems to be against me today...
what is going wrong actually?? no mood at all....
even though there are alot of assignments to be brushed up, i seem so indifferent today....
In fact, i should say my brain is stuck, totally and completely....
Cant even think and analysis anything up to snuff...
continue being so moody is not going to solve any problems by its own, that's y i should find another way out.... But the question is... what should i do ?

Endurance and patience is always a better solution to bad mood instead of abreacting to other people...
Remember you are the one... but not the only one...
Nothing can stop you from doing anything you want to do.... Try not to be influenced or affected by environment and other people....
See things differently, view the world differently....

太匆忙了... 就不能停下脚步来吗？

2008-07-24T22:55:00.002+08:00

时间像是瞬间流失似的。。。
太突然了，太匆忙了，也太自然了。。。
自然到使得我有点不是很自然。。。
以前每天都听见姐姐说什么时间不够用，我总是反驳说：事在人为罢了。。。放轻松点啦。。。
现在我身在其中，才发现原来我也不过如此。。。因为对于上了第二年的我，似乎忙得有点喘不过气来。可能是我之前太放松的关系罢! 搞得我还有点害怕，又有点茫然，还有点不知所措。。。

以前还有时间，坐在床边发呆，看看小说，翻翻哲学书籍。。。现在，就连坐在椅子上看看电脑荧幕，瞧瞧海报，也都觉得是种时间上的奢侈咯。。。虽然有点夸张的成分，但那感觉实在是太可怕了。。。
想必我可怕的东西也没好几样了。。。心理有数了吧。。。

适当的压力是种无形的推动力，一路来这对于我来讲都是行得通的。。。
但，未来是否还可以维持这种思维，那就很难讲咯。。。唉。。。
要求，你要就别只求不做；
对自己有要求，是件好事；因为生存的目的不过是符合需求，满足要求罢了。。。
清楚自己想要些什么，别人怎么看你，贬你，夸你，都不重要；
重要的是，你自己怎么看你自己。。。
没有东西是不可以的，只在乎你要不要，肯不肯而已。。。
就这么简单的一个人生道理。。。
知足常乐，常乐知足

Treasuring the TIME O-o

2008-06-21T19:00:00.002+08:00

Poor saturday again... shit... have to attend lab again...
slept pretty late yesterday but managed to wake up in time...
Though, i decided to delay abit cos don rili wanna to meet dat " gay fellow " in da lab so early...

Haiz... Pretty moody when i reached there... everything seems to be against me dis morning... the multimeter, the transistors, the voltage generator and the air... So naturally, when my friends asked me question about how to solve the experiment problems, i was so perfunctory when answering their questions... so sorry, my friends... i din mean to do that to u guys one...

I bet that was all bcos i can be influenced to easily... easily influenced by somebody that i dislike... what can i do?? what should i do?? though i have realized this long time ago.... it seems such characteristic still exists in myself...
Different people have different perspectives and intrinsically, they have the right to do whatever they like without hurting others...
Why care so much about those who isn't worth to be concerned???
As in digital system, we should make good use of the "don't-care-conditions"!!! Yeah... Agree leh..!!?? hehe... seriously and honestly, i think if we are able to do so, our life will turn out to be so so so beautiful... As those with little to be concerned about will be treated as "don't-care-conditions" and thus to be ignored necessarily...
But, the question is: Are we able to do so ???
Treating others as transparent?? Is dat possible?? *o*
I wish i can... -o-

Time is so precious...
Believe in miracles...
Yesterday was history;
Tomorrow will be mystery;
Today is a gift;
That's why it is called present...
Appreciate and grab every chances that we might have in our life... ^-^

Saturday- sunny day = lonely day

2008-06-07T10:57:00.001+08:00

Saturday again... today is da wat wat ahmat berhormat agong birthday... that's y i don't need to attend lab practical today... if not, i will be suffering facing that gay lecturer in the lab.... dislike him since first time met him... ask him things oli ma... kept scolding me only without knowing how to fix those problems oso... so lame... so gay...

Ha... genting klang buddies, i have succeeded in walking home from college lo... lolz...*o*
thursday 5-6-08 was a windy day, so after 6-pm lecture, me n ah ben have decided to try our journey to GK on our own foots... along the journey, we were able to see alot of things besides realizing somethings that we may have ignored or left out during our daily life... it was an incredible xperience indeed... nothing special la but feeling so so satisfied ... -o-

I guess it have been some times since i last wrote my comment, so many things to be written.. 6o9 yesterday was hao shen's birthday... let me intro to u guys who is he la, k? erm... i think i have to start with my xia xiang groups d... As for ur infomation, joining xia xiang is deemed such "enjoyale" and "unforgetable"..(depending how u work things out la).. in fact, we have had our very crazy and hepi moments together... who r we here?? certainly not da whole xia xiang groups la... it is da Shit Member Association(SMA) that contains 11 members... mayb i wil xplain each of them in detail next time ba.. now, i wil jz focus on hao shen... ar.. n ru yin oso... cos we celebrated her birthday together as well...

Hao Shen, erm... as far as im concerned, alot of people oso thought that he is gay one... don noe y lo.. in fact, "sissy" shud be a better word ma... hehe..(no hard feeling)...
let me clarify here la... he is a normal guy la.. like joking around... oways talk talk talk n argue argue argue with da others(omos everyone in da group)... actually dat's good oso, cos it created much drollery to be laughed at... haha... ya... n another word to describe him... "ge bo n talkative"... *o* however, he has his own good side oso geh... he is very observing n caring somtimes as he knows everythings including some tiny tiny facts... u-u

Ru Yin, erm, she is deemed our group leng lui lo... hehe.. erm... recalling last time being MC with her during xia xiang, walao, she is so so dim in speaking... n oso being partner to her during xia xiang nite... still remember dat show asking me to "propose" to her... ha.. omos forget d la... it was indeed very enjoyable la dat nite... erm... n to describe her, i wud say she can suitably become those "xiu nai nai"... n-n

oh ya... back to the celebration... erm... actually nothing much about dat la... was da same lo.. all da chit-chatting n all da argueing... we had our another memorable moment
yesterday la... n som mor they suggested to go overnite in klcc like wat we have done las time... really crazy one...
guess wat... they were not joking... they spent their time there for sure... me?? staying at home lo... not feeling very well ma... -0- hope won regret...

O-o -Enjoy what you have now before they French leave from you! by Aunty Thing... 07-06-08

哈... 刚帮我的房间大整顿...

2008-05-24T08:58:00.003+08:00

昨天突然新血来潮地把房间好好地整理整理一番...
现在看起来，我的房间看起来又比上回的更要大了... 嘻嘻...
应该是视觉效应罢了吧！不过，酱好过没有啦...
这么说起来，我房间还真的和我一起换季的哩... 几乎每个学期都会有不同的面貌... 对了... 不是几乎... 真的是每个学期（都换了四季了啦）...
嗯... 蛮有潜质当室内设计师... （其实还蛮想当的...但就算当也应该只为了设计我的梦幻旅店和理想家园罢了吧...所以嘛，当是副业好了... ) 嘻嘻... 自恋...
满意满意...
新学期，新房间，新能量，新动力；旧学院，旧电脑，旧战友，旧身躯；
需要不同的思考，不同的视野，不同的体会，不同的享受，
去追求同一个理想......
但问题是我的理想是什么呢?

Still in Holy Daeeee.....

2008-05-23T03:21:00.002+08:00

sleep kinda late yesterday nite(suppose to be dis morning)...
don noe y lo... was woken up by a piece of bottle... sien... so tired....
n then had my very strange dream...
wat da dream was all about?? erm... don quite remember d... but da story was like i went to pub until very late of nite then wanna send a gal home cos going back alone by herself was very dangerous...
but then so fish... we got lost... wat was next is da shooting scene dat is still fresh in mind...
i was able to see 5 guys holding guns(i suspect those guns were m16) before da other people around us did... so, i self-righteously asked da girl to grovel on da ground... guess wat...
so dramtical one..... we were da only survivors....
then??? rili wanna noe???
my alarm rang right after.... lolz....

dat dream.... pretty odd dream... guess it was "odd"ER than those dreams dat i hav had... wonder whether it brings any message to me leh??? wondering.......

first time write blog on da net...
so, drop some comment to me ba...
"ready"ing to share...
have a nice day la... *22052008*